I'm going to try.
It's been nearly two years since I've been completely invested in this place. I found the drama, bullshit and politics was just all too much. I lost my inspiration because my own life took a dive. I tried. I tried more than once to find that spark but I've played this game for ten years...it's bound to drop off. I've cut off writing from my life completely these past years.
Violet's life taking a tailspin was the final nail in the coffin. Last year when life was nothing short of a wreck, she made me laugh and kept me sane. I funnelled all the things I couldn't bear feeling through her, and it gave me hope that I would come around. She has always been my favourite because she is the easiest for me to write. No thinking required. She is also the first toon I have played since birth. I know her better than myself. There is no way she is going to spark back to life. I just can't see that being remotely possible. Her story is relatively over now. I should dispatch her, which she would love, but to be honest I don't because it would be a major pain in the ass moving all the stuff around. So, she shall rot in sadness I guess.
I don't know if I will be able to pull it off, this whole being around bit, but you know, I figure I can at least give it another try. All my toon's partners have been loyal and above and beyond amazing in the patience department. Seriously. I can't believe you all stuck if out, and I've given you outs so many times and there you stand. I know we all have a billion other toons that we can play but don't think that your loyalty didn't go unnoticed. If you need me in a fight, you know, chains, bats, brass knuckles, the whole nine yards, I'm there.
At any rate, I can't promise anything, but I will try. I've even been killing off characters to prevent myself from being so overwhelmed when I log in. I think there are some more murders in the works.
Other than this....life is actually....well...shaping up to be something rather lovely.
It's been nearly two years since I've been completely invested in this place. I found the drama, bullshit and politics was just all too much. I lost my inspiration because my own life took a dive. I tried. I tried more than once to find that spark but I've played this game for ten years...it's bound to drop off. I've cut off writing from my life completely these past years.
Violet's life taking a tailspin was the final nail in the coffin. Last year when life was nothing short of a wreck, she made me laugh and kept me sane. I funnelled all the things I couldn't bear feeling through her, and it gave me hope that I would come around. She has always been my favourite because she is the easiest for me to write. No thinking required. She is also the first toon I have played since birth. I know her better than myself. There is no way she is going to spark back to life. I just can't see that being remotely possible. Her story is relatively over now. I should dispatch her, which she would love, but to be honest I don't because it would be a major pain in the ass moving all the stuff around. So, she shall rot in sadness I guess.
I don't know if I will be able to pull it off, this whole being around bit, but you know, I figure I can at least give it another try. All my toon's partners have been loyal and above and beyond amazing in the patience department. Seriously. I can't believe you all stuck if out, and I've given you outs so many times and there you stand. I know we all have a billion other toons that we can play but don't think that your loyalty didn't go unnoticed. If you need me in a fight, you know, chains, bats, brass knuckles, the whole nine yards, I'm there.
At any rate, I can't promise anything, but I will try. I've even been killing off characters to prevent myself from being so overwhelmed when I log in. I think there are some more murders in the works.
Other than this....life is actually....well...shaping up to be something rather lovely.